How do you reward yourself?

[Eat'n Big]

I never reward myself because I think Im never good enough. This is how I motivate myself, I use negatitve vibes on myself.

Never heard of this type of out-look, but it is beyond clear that it works well for you.

 

[Rep]

Nuk, not sure how old you are, but get a handle on that shit before it gets worse. I know what your saying. When I was at my best, (maybe 280lbs), I thought I was small. I went to 311lbs and still thought I was small. After life crashed in on me and I lost size, the depression hit and I became a hermit. Not good bro. After several years of "growing up" or growing out of it, Im back but with a more mature look at things. Not sure how you took this but it sounds like me years ago. Good luck bro and you look better than 99.9% of the people in the world. Not everyone can be Jay Cutler. Your driven and maybe OCD. Use that gift if you will toward buisness or other parts of life and keep it real.
Take care