hopesanddreams
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I have been training for about 5 years now (sometimes with a PT, sometimes myself). I started off pretty skinny-fat (75kg), went through a whole bunch diet changes and exercise routine changes, but got to about 88kg and stayed at around 85-86kg. I joined a new trainer this year, who only said to take clen (no roids) and I have gone down to about 77-78kg. I feel I have gone back to looking skinny fat which means these past 5 years are down the toilet.
Diet:
protein: whey, casein, egg (mostly just whites), lentils, low fat cheese, semi-skimmed milk, soy (tofu), chicken bone broth (protein powder mixed with shakes which has helped hair/skin/nails in particular I think)
carbs: rice (tbh I prefer white rice), pasta (red lentil one usually so lower carb), maybe protein bread/bagel if I need some carbs, berries
fat: nuts (usually ground almonds), fish oil, the dairy above gives the other fat
I have difficulty digesting beef and chicken and fish in its raw form therefore don't eat this (but have tried extensively). I was told it shouldn't matter as I can consume the above but maybe I am wrong?
Training:
I have been on a tonne of routines, but none seem to really 'change' me. I have trained 3x a week very hard with PT's to ensure I get enough rest. I have also trained 6x a week at some point. Neither really 'transformed' me. I have done all kinds of reps - 6-8 for strength, some trainers put me on 12-15 per exercise and so on. For about 8 months I was also doing chest 2x a week and although I did gain strength I'm not sure my chest looked any better. I am confused at this point what I am actually supposed to be doing.
Roids:
Test/Parabolin - I did 'change' i.e. gain weight, strength etc in the gym on this. It was random brands.
Mast/Deca/Winny/Avanar - didn't use long enough to see results. Usually a couple of weeks before swapping back to the above.
Clen - I had the Pharmacom brand and for the first time in my life I lost weight (and fat because I found it harder to pinch the sides of my stomach).
I did some HGH for 3 months and that was wonderful. I grew, hair/skin was amazing, strength was insane and I felt great in general. I was never ill either.
However, I've been off everything for 8 weeks or so now, had blood work to make sure I have recovered and look pretty shitty. I want to order from Pharmacon but I'm not sure what to go for.
Sleep:
Always min 9 hours a day and never wake up or have issues with this.
I regress in strength *a lot* depending on diet. If I eat 2.5-3k calories, my strength definitely goes up each week, I feel great, but look "skinny fat". If I stay on about 2k calories, strength literally drops to women weights even (no offence) on cycle but that is the only way I see my stomach go in.
I have no medical issues and I'm 27yo, 6 foot so there is no reason I shouldn't be looking better. My goal is also not anything crazy, just something neat and tidy like this: https://i.pinimg.com/736x/56/a5/17/56a517358b7c7298c720ee406ad0b841--sam-asghari-bruce-lee.jpg
Pec out, thicker arms, FLAT stomach (no 6 pack needed but I dont want a pot belly either) and lines so I look like I gym at least.
Every trainer I have been to said this is doable and its a good aim so I have no idea why it is taking so long to get there.
Hope someone can point me in the right direction please. I have pics from the start to now but would prefer to PM it not share publicly as I'm embarrassed by my body.
Diet:
protein: whey, casein, egg (mostly just whites), lentils, low fat cheese, semi-skimmed milk, soy (tofu), chicken bone broth (protein powder mixed with shakes which has helped hair/skin/nails in particular I think)
carbs: rice (tbh I prefer white rice), pasta (red lentil one usually so lower carb), maybe protein bread/bagel if I need some carbs, berries
fat: nuts (usually ground almonds), fish oil, the dairy above gives the other fat
I have difficulty digesting beef and chicken and fish in its raw form therefore don't eat this (but have tried extensively). I was told it shouldn't matter as I can consume the above but maybe I am wrong?
Training:
I have been on a tonne of routines, but none seem to really 'change' me. I have trained 3x a week very hard with PT's to ensure I get enough rest. I have also trained 6x a week at some point. Neither really 'transformed' me. I have done all kinds of reps - 6-8 for strength, some trainers put me on 12-15 per exercise and so on. For about 8 months I was also doing chest 2x a week and although I did gain strength I'm not sure my chest looked any better. I am confused at this point what I am actually supposed to be doing.
Roids:
Test/Parabolin - I did 'change' i.e. gain weight, strength etc in the gym on this. It was random brands.
Mast/Deca/Winny/Avanar - didn't use long enough to see results. Usually a couple of weeks before swapping back to the above.
Clen - I had the Pharmacom brand and for the first time in my life I lost weight (and fat because I found it harder to pinch the sides of my stomach).
I did some HGH for 3 months and that was wonderful. I grew, hair/skin was amazing, strength was insane and I felt great in general. I was never ill either.
However, I've been off everything for 8 weeks or so now, had blood work to make sure I have recovered and look pretty shitty. I want to order from Pharmacon but I'm not sure what to go for.
Sleep:
Always min 9 hours a day and never wake up or have issues with this.
I regress in strength *a lot* depending on diet. If I eat 2.5-3k calories, my strength definitely goes up each week, I feel great, but look "skinny fat". If I stay on about 2k calories, strength literally drops to women weights even (no offence) on cycle but that is the only way I see my stomach go in.
I have no medical issues and I'm 27yo, 6 foot so there is no reason I shouldn't be looking better. My goal is also not anything crazy, just something neat and tidy like this: https://i.pinimg.com/736x/56/a5/17/56a517358b7c7298c720ee406ad0b841--sam-asghari-bruce-lee.jpg
Pec out, thicker arms, FLAT stomach (no 6 pack needed but I dont want a pot belly either) and lines so I look like I gym at least.
Every trainer I have been to said this is doable and its a good aim so I have no idea why it is taking so long to get there.
Hope someone can point me in the right direction please. I have pics from the start to now but would prefer to PM it not share publicly as I'm embarrassed by my body.
