Yes, I admit this is too much of bullshit. Mr456 you are totally right. I shouldn't post this question on this forum section, my mistake and I'm very sorry. I am just waisting board space. Again, I don't want to lose respect from many of you guys, don't get me wrong but I feel free to ask any kind of questions here. You people are just different from people that I know in real life, at least I assume that. A little update on me and my girlfriend for the last time. Finaly, I realised that this girl is unable to give me what I want, and what I was looking for. I am older than her, and I wanted a serious relationship, we had many talks about getting married and stuff, but it just didn't work out. She says, she loves me, she cries to me, and everything but I always come the last one. She likes to spend more time with her friends than me. I gave up everything for this girl, half of my life and heart I gave it to her, and I didn't even get her attention. So it brings me to this. THERE IS NO LOVE, period. In your lifetime, you'll learn what life really is, and even when you die you won't have enough knowledge. We had some good times together, but most of them were bad. I have tatto on my left side of my chest ( where heart is ). Its a blue rose, going through red heart and inside the heart I wrote her name. At least that can give me some great memories of her. For me, I don't think female exist anymore. I'll just continue with my training, and my music career. Noone is worth anyone. Everything is a lie, except death -- remember that. One more time, sorry for getting some of you guys mad. This will be my last post about me and my gf.