Thank you all. I would like to say that I don't let shit build up, but that would be a lie. I have gotten better with age and experience at managing frustrations. I really do try my best to not stay angry, not hold grudges, forgive, not forget but hold myself/others accountable for our actions.
I truly feel that holding on to negatively and hatred are the things that caused cancer, metaphorically and, physical to an extent.
My wife says that I can be like a pressure cooker. I have improved drastically, but I do admittedly need to continue the work.
One of my biggest concerns about going on cycle was how I would be as a person and how I would treat others. The funny thing is, that I was more level headed and self aware during my cycles. I think that my fear of emotionally hurting someone dear to me made me very cautious and self aware.
I have had far more negative experiences off the sauce, than on. Obviously, that has allot to to with the simple mathematical facts of time on vs off.
Anyway, I really appreciate you all.
Breakfast was really early and simple
4 build eggs
2 cup oatmeal with ¼cup mixed nuts, and ½cup of unsweetened Ripple plant based milk.
Coffee protein shake combo while snacking on dry roasted Walnuts on the drive.
Back, abb, and some cardio work today.
The cardio is kinda cheating to be honest. I went on a dirtbike ride in the mountains for an hour or so to watch the sunrise and clear my head.
Snack during the ride was protein bar and 12 out of my 24oz Shaker with All Day You May BCAA.